No Mas | 01/28/08
It's time to say goodbye to classical music and, to that end, to throwing money at universities to teach it to me. Over the past six months I've finally come to terms with the fact I just don't like classical music anymore and the thought of having to study it for another three years makes my stomach turn. Although I would have liked to have taught it at some level, I simply don't see how the world is in any sort of need for another atrocious "modern" flute solo or zzz-brass quintet. The funny part to me is that my music is played more now than it ever has and each year picks up dozens more of unsolicited performances than the last. This all started in about 2003 and with the passing of each calendar I get more emails telling me my music is great and larger checks being cut to me. The only "problem" is that it's all for a single genre; one that is neither respected nor appreciated in the classical realm and frankly I was also tired of having to downplay those to seem a decent member of the establishment. This sunk in last year after submitting applications to schools where I knew damn well I had more pieces performed annually than the entire composition faculty combined and still didn't get in. Did they sell a twenty copies of a single piece in the same month? If they did, why would their mom want twenty copies of their piece for solo flute?
While I'm not as skilled at programming as Ricky or Brian and not as killer of an optimizer as Christine, I do both admirably even if I'm not in the 98% percentile like they are. What I do have going for me in this area is that, at least so far, I have killer business ideas and the skills to build the sites behind them. If for no other reason, this is why I'm ready for a change--because I'm not going to be living on the street or cleaning bathrooms (again). So to you classical music, thanks for the memories but I don't think we should see each other any more. You just love yourself too much to be loved by anyone else.